January 2010
“Ding dong. Woof. Bears.”
Funnnn night! I’d still like to know who peed on the couch though…… My apologies to kats mom for having to clean it up
Isn’t it interesting how you could dream one thing, wake up, thinking you just had such an amazing dream.. but than realize, when you go back and remember it, it isn’t as amazing?
“I am the sacred cow”
– Brendan Happe
What do you want to do before you die?
(via katrinab)
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WHHY.
I just got a cut on my finger stuck to velcro. Who does that besides me?
I remember when I promised myself to create optimistic views. I don’t break promises. So here we goooooooooooooooooo :)
Follow up..
She was released, and also a part of me is now as well…
Rest well. 1.23.10
I’ve left my survival in between your fingers. Grasp them tightly, they could slip away.
So the smile I had for a few weeks now, and that I finally got back is slowly closing.
I’m starting to think this isn’t completely my fault, it’s the letdown, and its the reliance.
Just a follow up..
A while ago, I wrote an entry titled, Release? And I just recently skimmed through it. The most exaggerated things do come out when your upset. I am sorry to him, not that he will ever read it, to trying to address he is some kind of heartless monster. Which was completely unnecessary and immature. He is not that horrible man I have said he was, he is just a man, with three girls, a hard life, and...
Do you know?
Do you know that feeling in your throat, when your holding back a cry? Is it sort of like gaining strength? It could be like working a muscle, since it does sort of cause pain. Do you know the feeling?
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The great thing about confusion, is the element of surprise.
“What’s the difference between a two year old and a Porsche?
i dont have a...”
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“Treat me like shit, I’m in love with it..”
Sad the things i have to look foward to today,
..Woo.. Mom’s bringing me home an iced chai tea
…Woo..
-sarcastic tone-
“Perfection is defined when your heart beats next to mine, and time stands still...”
it took me three hours to write this exactly as i...
katrinab:
you are a wood chipper.
i saw the way you looked at me
from across the room.
seductive stars glinting in your eyes,
and i curse myself !
as i bite my lip
to withhold the jumping jitters from escaping my well being.
we are (-furtive-) foxes, damn it, and such beasts don’t have emotions.
well, not when it comes to us, at least.
that arch of your lip,
that blessed...
The thought.
I’d just like to say on a more serious note, I have extremely confused emotions. I am scared for your death, because I love you. I know your a strong woman, but if you need to go, it’s fine with me. There is no way you have not filled every one with happiness that you know, and I really hope you can understand that. Don’t think it’s that I have given up on you, or you have...
Hey tumblr.
Sorry I haven’t been updating lately. I’ve been figuring all of everything out, and basically.. My life has gotten a thousand times better. I feel more focused on so much. The way i’m treated is improving, and the way I treat myself, has been more focused on the little things that I can do. I can honestly say, a smile has been on my face. I probably can also say, it is mostly...
Please.
Please don’t let this hurt you,
This moment is real,
Please don’t replace me,
My heart is surreal,
The three words I tell you,
Are completely true,
The three words I tell you,
Are that,
I love you.
Don’t let them scare you,
They are merely three words,
One letter, Four, and than just three,
Meaning so much more,
Than any others could mean,
I love you.
Have you ever been so scared to lose the person you love most? The one who makes you happy? The one you need? If you love someone, let them go. But I can’t. I’m shaking. I’m terrified. I’m acting strange. I’m really not sure, how I can control myself from anything at all.
Today I’m forcing smiles, that I can’t release. They are too weak to come out, but not hard to reach.
My stupity to belief is killing me.
Positive
Have you ever noticed how hard it is to stay positive? Even when you want to. I know it is for me. But I’m giving it my all, for better luck.